~ I'm thinking about our culture's reliance on "experts". The way we've forgotten how to trust ourselves, never learned to risk or try without classes and certificates and someone else's approval of our attempt. I'm thinking too about how that leads to so many of us attempting to be "experts" ourselves, to sell our message and gather our audience, often before we've earned the right. Thinking about our conversation about blogging, I realize I am drawn almost entirely to bloggers who come online to share themselves and receive from others, instead of those who come to teach and gather followers. I've never been comfortable with the idea of hierarchy; I'm drawn to community, egalitarianism.
My slow read through Emerson yields this today:
"...a public oration is an escapade, a noncommittal, an apology, a gag, and not a communication, not a speech, not a man. [...] A like nemesis presides over all intellectual works. We have yet to learn that the thing uttered in words is not therefore affirmed."
I am fairly convinced that our modern culture does not share my view, for we live in a time that celebrates the notion of mastery and not the journey to mastery.
Is it humility that escapes us? The willingness to be uncertain, unknowing, to be found still unformed and in process?
One of my favorite lines in scripture is from Acts, Peter's offering to the lame man: "such as I have give I thee."
No hubris, no facade of ability. Such as I have, I give.
"Be a gift and a benediction. Shine with real light, and not with the borrowed reflection of gifts."
That's enough for me to think on for the rest of the day.
The day is winding down. I hope to spend a little more time reading this afternoon, we'll take a late bike ride, come home for some lentil soup. Tomorrow I have to get myself out of vacation mode and back into novel-writing. The blueberries are almost ripe, the tomatoes have their little arrow blooms, the longest day of the year has come and gone already.
Shine on, friends.
Be a gift.